On the spur of the moment

I like being adventurous and doing things on the spur of the moment. So when my office told me that I could take the day off for holi, I was quite excited. I wasn't supposed to have an off - never did on Eid or Makar Sankranti or Republic Day or whatever. Apparently, there's a new rule now, according to which everyone gets offs in rotation. So, some people were off on Holi and others will be off on the next holiday.

Anyhow, coming to the point... mom dad had gone to Agra for holi so I decided I want to go too! I found out a travel agent in my sector, booked a ticket, booked a taxi to take me to the station at 5 a.m. and there I was sitting in the shatabdi to Agra. It was so much fun. I didn't do much more than making a few calls and collecting my ticket from an Uncle's place but the whole thing somehow gave me a sense of independence. The drive to the station gave me a feeling of exhilaration. Any city is so different in the wee hours of the morning. I remember driving back from ACJ in Chennai at 4 a.m. I just loved driving on the road by the Marina and driving at those unearthly hours (a 2-wheeler at that) used to make me feel so free for some reason. Sigh...I'm missing ACJ now:( I also loved observing the sounds of the night time and I love to look at the night sky. I must say the night sky is the best in the north-east - so bright and clear. In Shillong, I'd be on the terrace for an hour every night - just looking at the stars, finding constellations or making up my own!

Anyway, my trip to Agra was good. Didn't play holi, just met up relatives, cousins, niece and nephew! The little angels are as cute as ever. I think these sudden spurts of vacation can sometimes be more refreshing than the well-planned holidays. Ok I think it's time to log off. Ciao.
-M.

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Yo-yo/Ping pong ball - those are things I can identify myself with these days. Why are people so inconsistent in their thoughts/actions? Can't they make up their minds and stay that way forever? Or atleast for a reasonably long period of time?
Why am I expected to understand and adjust my thoughts/actions/feelings according to what people around me think/act/feel?
Can I have some stability in my life? Is that too much to ask for?
And can I stop adjusting and give up? Why is that never an option for me? Why is it something I find hard to consider, let alone try?
Why is nothing ever ENOUGH?
Is it ever going to be? Is there any point in trying yet another time?

Gibberish

Raindrops, wind, sunshine, twilight
Success, failure, day and night
Happiness, sorrow, joy, pain
Shadow, light, power, fame
Body, soul, life, death
Love, hatred and loneliness
-M